Baby's on fire

inthisfacade @ 2008-01-16T17:42:00

2008-01-16T23:43:01Z

I wish I could live free.
I hope it's not beyond me.
Settling down it takes time.
One day we'll live together,
and life will be better.
I have it here yeah in my mind.
Baby, you know someday you'll slow grow.

And baby, my heart's been breaking.

I gave a lot to you.
I take a lot from you too.
You slave a lot for me.
Guess you could say I gave you my edge.

But I can't pretend I need to defend some part of me from you.
I know I've spent some time all lying.

I can't pretend I don't need to defend some part of me from you.
I know I've spent some time all lying.

You're looking alright tonight.
I think we should go.
You're looking alright tonight.
I think we should go.

inthisfacade @ 2007-09-07T22:58:00

2007-09-08T03:59:31Z

Karma police, arrest this man, he talks in maths
He buzzes like a fridge, hes like a detuned radio
Karma police, arrest this girl, her hitler hairdo, is making me feel ill
And we have crashed her party
This is what you get, this is what you get
This is what you get, when you mess with us

Karma police, Ive given all I can, its not enough
Ive given all I can, but were still on the payroll
This is what you get, this is what you get
This is what you get, when you mess with us
And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself
And for a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself

For a minute there, I lost myself, I lost myself

don't you forget about me

2007-06-27T22:06:21Z

How does everyone feel about me moving to Austria to be with him?

Oh, my sweet Eric

2007-04-17T17:57:32Z

My baby is coming home tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It has been too long.

inthisfacade @ 2007-04-06T20:05:00

2007-04-07T00:08:06Z

I need to better myself.
I need to stop thinking that I am helpless and that things are hopeless.
I need to work towards actually achieving my goals.
I am going to try.
I am going to try to think positive and stop the self-loathing.

Hard to find a more heartbreaking song

2007-03-22T07:56:39Z

well all the apostles-they're sitting in swings
saying "i'd sell off my savior for a set of new rings
and some sandles with the style of straps that cling best to the era"
so all of the businessers in their unlimited
hell where they buy and they sell and they sell all their
trash to each other but they're sick of it all
and they're bankrupt on selling
and all of the angels
they'd sell off yer soul for a set of new wings and anything gold
they remember
the people they loved their old friends
and i've seen through'em all seen through'em all and seen through most everything
all the people you knew were the actors
all the people you knew were the actors
well, i'll go to college and i'll learn some big words
and i'll talk real loud
goddamn right i'll be heard
you'll remember all the guys that said all those big words he must've
learned in college
and it took a long time
i came clean with myself
i come clean out of love with my lover
i still love her
loved her more when she used to be sober and i was kinder

inthisfacade @ 2007-03-19T16:50:00

2007-03-19T21:55:03Z

I thrive on the only comforting thought I can think of...
That maybe someday I will run away to New Zealand.

Oyster crackers

2007-02-04T20:53:31Z

So, my mom brought home a delicious snack made of oyster crackers and some seasonings.
I think the seasonings involve dry ranch dressing mixture, dill and something else. I'm not really sure.
Apparently, this is a very old and popular snack and I am delighted to have found it.

If anyone knows exactly the recipe of this delicous snack, I would be greatful to hear it.

Chicago

2007-02-01T21:03:10Z

Don't want to be your monkey wrench

2007-01-28T01:36:43Z

As much as I may have bitched about people allowing themselves to turn into zombies over video games, I have succumbed to such behavior.
I eat, breathe and think guitar hero.
I fall asleep thinking about the chords and I groggily force myself to wake up to play more guitar hero.
If anyone has played guitar hero or guitar hero 2, they probably understand.
I have just beat psycho-billy freak out on medium and bought the grim reaper character.
I am stoked.

jesus christ

2007-01-22T07:04:28Z

The state of uncertainty is a mean one.
I am most likely uncomfortable with the probable outcome.
I just want to be sure of SOMETHING...
even if it is a negative thing.

I'm sorry all of my posts are so vague and dramatic.
I'm too much of a pussy to come out and say what I mean and I'm too young to not exaggerate everything.

I wish I had a mentor to figure out my life for me...or at least head me in the right direction.

inthisfacade @ 2007-01-12T18:30:00

2007-01-12T23:32:55Z

IAll of my words are worn out.

Panic disorder

2007-01-10T05:19:21Z

"blah blah blah bullshit. my life sucks. i wish i could cry but i have no tears left and my tears fell like the rain." -Rob

inthisfacade @ 2007-01-04T18:35:00

2007-01-04T23:56:21Z

LAYER ONE:
Spell your name with bands/artists
L- Low
E- Elliott Smith
A- American analog set
H- Hornet

LAYER TWO:
-- Name: Leah
-- Birth date: October 17th
-- Nicknames: Smalls, Twoey, Bobie, Littles, etc.
-- Eye Color: Dark Brown
-- Hair Color: Naturally blonde...but currently, magenta.
-- Righty or Lefty: righty
-- Best friend(s): I have a lot.

LAYER THREE:
-- The shoes you wore today: My knee-high boots.
Your perfect pizza: Depends on my mood. I had an especially delicious jalepeno and pepporoni pizza once.

LAYER FIVE:
-- Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
-- McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's breakfast.
-- Adidas or Nike: Adidas, I guess?
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Indifferent.
-- Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee

LAYER SIX
-- Do you sing: Pretty much incessantly.
-- Do you shower everyday: No.
-- Do you think you have been in love: Yes.
-- Want to go to college: Who needs college when you've got drugs?
-- Think you're a health freak: Opposite?
-- Get along with your parents: For the most part.

LAYER SEVEN:
In the past month..
-- Gone to the mall: Yes
-- Kissed someone: Yes
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Nope
-- Eaten Sushi: Nope
-- Been on stage: No
-- Gone skating: Yes, ice skating.
-- Made homemade cookies: Yes, as a matter of fact.
-- Stolen anything: No

LAYER EIGHT:
Have you ever...
--Gotten in big trouble with your parents: Yep.
--Lied about your age: Yes
--Used a fake ID: Yes

LAYER NINE:
-- Age you hope to be married: Whenever I feel comfortable with it.
-- Number of Children: I have no way of telling, now.

LAYER TEN
On the opposite sex..
-- Best eye color: Doesn't matter.
-- Best hair color: Doesn't matter.
-- Short hair or long hair?: Whatever. In retrospect, probably long.

LAYER ELEVEN:
-- Number of people you could trust with your life: I couldn't tell you. Hopefully a handful.
-- Number of CDs you own: Over a hundred.
-- Number of piercings: Ears, sometimes.

inthisfacade @ 2006-12-31T21:46:00

2007-01-01T01:46:13Z

AH! I feel like I have been sleeping for hours.
I am patiently waiting for Paige and Sam's return and for the New year festivities to begin.
Kayli and I have the worst car-luck imaginable.

inthisfacade @ 2006-12-27T10:31:00

2006-12-27T14:31:58Z

FUUUCK!
So, last night a couple of my friends and I drank at Brooke's...after shortly dismissing a ridiculous party. I fell asleep in Brooke's bed around 1:00, assuming I would wake up within a few hours and go home.
However, I just fucking woke up and it is nearly 10:00 AM and I have once again missed school.
I feel worthless.

Also, who the hell is snoring on Brooke's couch??

merry christmas

2006-12-25T20:32:18Z

king saul fell on his sword when it all went wrong,
and joseph's brothers sold him down the river for a song,
and sonny liston rubbed some tiger balm into his glove.
some things you do for money and some you do for love love love.

raskolnikov felt sick but he couldn't say why
when he saw his face reflected in his victim's twinkling eye.
some things you'll do for money and some you'll do for fun,
but the things you do for love are going to come back to you one by one.

love love is going to lead you by the hand
into a white and soundless place.
now we see things as in a mirror dimly.
then we shall see each other face to face.

and way out in seattle young kurt cobain
snuck out to the greenhouse, put a bullet in his brain.
snakes in the grass beneath our feet, rain in the clouds above,
some moments last forever, but some flare up with love love love.

would you go along with someone like me?

2006-12-15T06:21:18Z

EVERYONE IS COMING HOME IN A WEEK!

I'm so excited...
"I'm so scared."

inthisfacade @ 2006-12-11T05:00:00

2006-12-11T09:00:03Z

Do you have the following in your bedroom:

Condoms: Yes

Cell phone: No

Chair/stool: Yes

Dresser: Yes

Computer/laptop: No

Bean bag: No

Pictures: Yes

Mirror: Yes

Skateboard: No

Single or double Bed: Queen

Clothes on the floor: Not right now.

smoke detector: Yeah

Piano/keyboard/Guitar/bass/drums: Keyboard

Locking door: No

Bottle of water: No

Black light: No

Medals/ribbons: No

Awards: No

CDs: Yes

Flag: No

Stop sign/any sign: No

Paintball/Airsoft gun: No

Real Gun: No

Books: Yeah

Nintendo: No

Xbox: No

Playstation: No

Stereo: Yes

Television: No

Cable: No

Lighter: Yes

Gum: No

How many windows do you have in ur room? 1

What is the color of your walls? A terrible shade of blinding pink

Do you get ready for the day in your room or the bathroom? Both

What color is your bed sheet? Pink

What's on your walls? Posters. Random things. Pictures, maybe?

Has the opposite sex been in your room before? Yes

Has the opposite sex been on your bed? Yes

You just can't do what your body isn't meant to

2006-12-09T03:29:17Z

They don't exist anymore.
There is nothing to feel.

very literal

2006-12-05T00:57:54Z

They're coming to take me away,
Haha, they're coming to take me away,
Ho ho, hee hee, ha ha,
To the funny farm
Where Life is Beautiful all the time
And I'll be happy to see
Those Nice Young Men
In their Clean White Coats
And they're coming to take me AWAY,
HA HAAAAA

You thought it was a joke,
and so you LAUGHED, YOU LAUGHED
When I had said that losing you
Would make me flip my lid,

RIGHT?

You know you laughed.
I HEARD you laugh, you laughed
And laughed and laughed
And then you left,
And now you know I'm Utterly Mad

inthisfacade @ 2006-12-01T17:39:00

2006-12-01T21:39:13Z

For the amusement of Brooke only:

LupeyOlives: soo... were u guys really not lying about that thomas kid
eatglassleah: no, dude- that fucker's crazy

inthisfacade @ 2006-11-27T07:04:00

2006-11-27T11:04:03Z

~~Is it completely insane of me to expect that i will fall asleep ever again?~~

Ok. No.

Is it completely insane of me to be up, thinking about how pissed off it makes me when people only conversate with you so that have a chance at talking about themselves?

NO, not even fucking that-

people that seriously ONLY talk to you...because they REALLY want to talk about themselves and are so far gone that they cannot possibly attempt to pretend that they give any bit of a shit about you at all?

what the hell is wrong with me?

Who else is this angry and restless at 6:30 in the morning?

Price check: 10 gallon bucket of lard

2006-11-24T23:14:18Z

So, today I went to the Village Market in Decatur...for the first time in a couple years and was quite shocked to stumble upon what I did.

I was lurking around in the aisle with the taco stuff and RIGHT above all of the like, 'El paso' bullshit seasonings...there are all of these tacky crucifixes, mother Mary candles, and other random catholic ornaments.

I was going to give the store the benefit of the doubt, but there were seriously NO other things of the sort- or anything out of place above ANYTHING ELSE IN THE AISLE!

What the hell??!?

Is this only INSANE and incredibly racist to me?

inthisfacade @ 2006-11-18T16:01:00

2006-11-18T20:01:57Z

1. Someone knocks on your door at 2 a.m., who do you want it to be?
Todd trainer.

2. Your boss tells you he/she will give you a $20 raise if you'll do your job naked would you stay?
What have I got to lose?

3. Put yourself in a nutshell:
What kind of a sick joke is this?

4. Ever seen a ghost?
Have you?

5. Happy with your body?
It's ok. I'm not UNhappy enough to care to do anything about it.

6. A reason you would move to Iceland:
Gorgeous landscape.

7. A place you've lived that you miss:
...

8. A job you would never do no matter how much you were paid:
Any lifeless, redundant, obviously depressing office job. Basically any job that requires me to work in a cubicle.

9. A band you thought was cool when you were 13:
Saves the day.

10. You have a nightmare, who's the first person you think to call?
Whoever I think the nightmare will most amuse.

11. Wanna have kids before you're 30?
Right around 30 could be ok, maybe.

12. A memory from high school:
All things Wolff's room.

13. Ever had a crush on one of your friend's parents?
I don't think so.

14. Naughtiest thing you've done at work?
Drank, I guess.

15. Do you look more like your mom, or your dad?
Dad.

16. Something you've always wanted to learn how to do:
Fly.

17. Still friends with your exes?
Ouch. Not many. Hardly any at all, in fact.

18. Where you'd like to be in 10 years:
Content and comfortable. I know, that was a total puss-out.

19. Something you learned about yourself this year:
I'm really intimidated/intolerable of trashy, gangsta girls.

20. What do you want for your birthday?
Luckily, it is over. It would have been cool to not have gotten into an accident.

21. NAME THREE THINGS YOU DID TODAY?
Brushed my teeth, smoked a cigarette, listened to Salt n Peppa.

22. LAST ITEM YOU BOUGHT YOURSELF?
A coat/glovemittens.

23. DO U HAVE AN ORNAMENT HANGING FROM UR REARVIEW MIRROR?
I'm thinking I will have a zombie head.

24.WHAT DID YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST?
Cigarette.

25. WHO HAS THE MOST TATTOOS:
In the world? I'm guessing one of the people that tattooed themselves to look like a different species.

26. NAME THE LAST THREE BANDS YOU SAW LIVE
Twista and his posse, big black, shellac.

27. HOW MANY HOURS OF SLEEP DO YOU GET A NIGHT?
Generally, about 3.

28. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TIED UP?
In a completely nonsexual way.

29. WHAT DO YOU WISH YOU WERE DOING RIGHT NOW?
Flying.

30. WHO'S THE FIRST PERSON IN YOUR PHONE BOOK ON YOUR CELL?
Is it completely unheard of to NOT have a cell phone now?

31. LAST TIME YOU WITNESSED A FIGHT?
I can't remember. Probably a party or something.

32. WHAT WAS THE LAST ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGE YOU DRANK?
I think straight captain morgan. ugh.

33. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HAIR PULLED?
No, it is a sure-fire way to piss me off.

34. NAME THREE PLACES YOU WOULD LIKE TO TRAVEL TO:
All of Europe, the Philipines and Japan.

35. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO ICE SKATE?
Yes.

37. NAME SOMETHING THAT YOU LIKE THATS OUT OF THE ORDINARY?
Dorito chip sandwiches? Is that weird?

38. IS BIGGER REALLY BETTER?
No. Very seldom...regarding anything.

39. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF BRAD PITT?
I'm a fan.

40. Name a friend you have the most in common with?
I'll have to get back to you in a couple of years.

41. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR TOENAILS?
Dark red/brown.

42. Last person you talked with on the phone?
Brian's voice mail.

43. DO YOU OWN ANYTHING WITH A SKULL ON IT?
Surprisingly, I don't think so.

44. HAVE YOU TRAVELED TO EUROPE?
Nope.

44.5: Have you ever been to Antarctica?
No.

45. NAME THREE PEOPLE YOU WOULD TRUST WITH YOUR LIFE?
Is this literal or...?

46. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Waiting.

47. WHERE WERE YOU WHEN YOU HAD YOUR FIRST KISS?
I don't remember...probably a playground or something.

49. LAST BOARD GAME YOU PLAYED?
Probably yahtzee.

50. LEATHER OR LACE?
In what regards? Lace, I guess.

51. EVER HAD A BLACK EYE?
Yep.

52. WHERE DO YOU RENT YOUR MOVIES?
Wherever there is an undamaged account.

53. HAVE YOU EVER WORN FISH NET STOCKINGS?
Yes, I'm pretty sure I went through a time period where I didn't NOT wear fish net stockings.

54. DO YOU KNOW ANYONE IN PRISON?
Several.